above is a link on on women ski jumpers being denied entrance into the winter games in Vancouver. Today was the last day of class and we wrote about uprising vs. rioting, and minorities and how they are potrayed in the media. When i watched this story all I could think of is an uprising. We have come so far as a society to push equality. I know this story takes place in Canada, but it’s a story the whole world should see. I feel bad for these girls that are setting world records, and yet being denied. This shows tolerence to sexism, racism, and ignorance. If you can’t let the girls compete, then u mind as well tell black people they can’t compete. This is completely ignorant and distasteful. 

 my eyes have opened in class to the past and present injustices of minorites. women in particular fascinated me because of their continued uprising toward equality. gettting educations, careers, starting their own businesses, and taking no shit. i have been especially touched by this story because these young girls are pushing the evelope just a little more. they have lost this battle, but wars arent won with one battle. they have to keep fighting. continue with love in their hearts. I hope that a story like this can perpetuate ALL oppressed to rise up with love in their hearts and change the world one battle at a time.

it is my belief that if you are born in the USA then you’re sitting on a winning lottery ticket. All you have to do is cash it. i believe in three things that lead to success. they are my golden rules: live postive, focused, and healthy. confidence is a smear that can’t be wiped. i belive with all of my heart that if I follow my golden rules, then I will attain everything  I want. The mind is so powerful that it can change our physical health. Continue with love in your heart, maybe some anger, but it must be the right amount. these girls are going to be ok. their uprising will continue feeding the confidence that ALL are created equal in relevence, and we deserve the right to pursue our dreams.

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we could go on forever about all of Michael Jackson’s accolades. He undoubtly forever changed music. That was my dude! I remember once when I was growing up getting yelled at for grabbing my crotch like michael. that was my fucking dude.

i think i will always remember where I was at the day he passed. when i watch “this is it” i cant help but fall in love with him.the overwhelming amount of love in his heart for everyone around him is uniquely inspiring. the world will always be at a loss.

but there is a part of me happy to see him gone. i think michael was suffering a great deal inside and completely misunderstood. He was like a great star entering the final stages of life. Instead of exploding he imploded. I hope and pray that his death was of no suffering, and the pain he felt forever be dorment. i hope that where ever he is he is happy and kickin it with all of the other chill ass people who gave us kick ass music. Celebrate his life!

now, i don’t know about the doctor. why would anyone wanna fuck there job up like that? i’m sure that he was getting paid quite well. Why would he ever want to screw that up? As long as Michael is making money, so is he. it just doesn’t make sense.

on the other hand, wouldn’t a doctor know better then to ever have something like this happen? I have to belief the doctor isn’t an idiot. he has to have sense. i think he got a raw deal out of this. it so happens the man under his care happens to be Mike. this isn’t going to end well. this doctor is going to be crucified. he will never work again, he will end up having to write a book and doing interviews. his life is going to suck. jail or not.

above you will find the link to Lil Wayne’s new song “drop the world”

as i write this I am listening to it right now. I am a huge Wayne fan. i dont know why but everything he sais(for the most part) makes sense to me. I live in a world of oppurtunity and self made success. This song in particular pushes me in another way. I am recovering from a nasty break up with my high school sweetie and it had me at the very core of my soul. the pain i was in for so long aged me…it aged my soul. I couldnt believe how it ended. i couldnt believe people that say that they love eachother so much can be so fucking nasty to eachother. Not everything was her fault, i had my moments as well, but the way it ended was nasty as fuck. I know in my heart i will never forget what she did to me. I know i will never forget how she left me.

When i listen to this song it inspires me to keep pushing. It reminds me that I am still here and I can do anything I want. me graduating and getting that job and living the life I dream of is me picking up the world and dropping it on her fucking head. I dont hate her, I just fucking have a score to settle. And I will. i know she is sitting at home in bum fucking michigan thinking that the sugar daddy she found is going to make her happy in the long run. I think she somehow thinks that makes her successful. I dare her to stand on her own two and get her own. I dare her!

her last words to me: “white trash, faggot, unsuccessful, loser…..”(the list goes on) I definetely will be seeing her again, and when the time is right…Im gonna pick the world up and drop it on her fucking head.

the above link will bring you to a story about a young girl who suffers from a rare disease that makes her look older than she is. This  disease is called lipodystrophy. It is a genetic disorder that ages the skin uncontrollably. I feel so bad for this girl because even though she may appear to be 50, she’s only 13. I can’t imagine the pain she suffers. The ridicule that brittles her already fragile mind. Mt heart truly goes out to her.

we live in a world where so much is placed on the outer self. What we look like, our clothes, our car, even our phones. It’s sad  we are that shallow and collectively we will always remain this way. We live in a world where kings and queens in the celebrity form help shape our thinking. almost as if they are thinking for us. The music we listen to, the movies we watch, the language we use, I mean it comes down to being the very fabric that we we awake with in the morning. I believe there are alot of mishaped youth, and weak minded individuals that do everything they can to hold an image. an image they embody emulated from something external. I am guilty of it as well. I go to school to get an education that will afford me the oppurtunity to make more money. What I want to do with this money is buy my dream car. As if my car will change my life, or  impact a childs life in some positive fashion. My car will change nothing,,,but perhaps my attitude. I look in the mirror every morning and I wonder what can i fix? in reality, nothing I do externally is going to bring me to what I am searching for, it may only be pushing me away.

Someone once said to me: “It’s not where you’re at, it’s whom you are.”  I am 28,  and that forever holds true in my heart. We will never be happy with anything or anyone until we can be happy with ourselves. We can never appreciate what has been gained until we know what it’s like to lose. A smile never means the same if we can’t frown. And tears never taste so sweet unless we can’t taste the salt. Everything has a 180. I believe once we have traveled the entire 360, then only can we appreciate the 180.

this poor girl will suffer for as long as she chooses to suffer. we will hate as long as we choose to hate. we will be….as long as we choose to be. Anything.

above you will find the link to Apple’s Steve Jobs do their demmo on the new IPAD. let me tell you, I watched and I was blown away. What an amazing piece of technology. As i watched the demmo, i couldn’t help but think about the movie Minority Report and the computer technology depicted in the movie. The total touch screen, hands on, and complete involvement of the user. This new IPAD looks amazing! I guess the way to describe it is…a big IPHONE??? I mean it seems to run just as an Iphone does, but just bigger and better. I LOVE my Iphone. I think it’s the best phone out there and if it wasn’t for the service(sprint) I would never dream of any different phone. It’s like having the hottest chick on the planet…just by far the best phone. But I ask myself…is this Ipad worth of shelling out anywhere from $499-$699 for the basic Ipad, and anywhere from $699-$899 for Ipad 3gs when it REALLY is an oversized Iphone?  In my opinion, Ipad would have to offer me something that can’t be done on my phone. I was really hoping that perhaps it would be college student friendly. Judging by the demmo, there isn’t any built in apps to attract college students…i.e, microsoft word…at least it wasn’t shown…can u download it??? i don’t know. Also I would like to see a port to maybe exchange music, papers, photos, and whatever else….

As a college student living in a struggling economy YOU must show me something that I can’t live with out…because s why must i feel it necessary to buy an over grown IPOD? and by the way,,,I have to pay a monthly service charge in addition to the purchase of my new Ipad…and as i mentioned beffore, Sprint SUCKS!!! below you will find a link to an article describing the negatives of the Ipad.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100127/ap_on_hi_te/us_tec_apple

WTF!!!

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So when i woke up this morning and checked out the news on my computer this is the first thing that popped up. A suicididal psychopath, hell bent on destruction. When I see this, and hear about it, it reminds me just how lucky I am to live in the USA. I dont have to fear going to school, work, or running errands. The unlucky bastards that woke up thinking it’s just another day at the office and then BOOM…..everything changes. That’s husbands, wives, fathers, mothers, sisters, and brothers… just like that…are gone. It tears me up a little inside. You don’t choose where u are born. U don’t choose your mom and dad. I believe with all certainty that you don’t wake up in the morning thinking it’s just another day at the office and instead you become a body count. So fucking sad.

I believe with all of my heart that if you are born in the USA, then u are sitting on a winning lottery ticket. All you have to do is put the numbers in play. I suppose with the exception of mentally incapable people, everyone has the chance of a lifetime to do something great. I can’t imagine living in a world of blinding chaos and fear. I don’t want to imagine that at all. I am saddened for all of the families affected by the horrible event that took place today. I am saddened for the world that we live in. It’s a shame that their are leaders out there that manipulate the weak into commiting such painful and horrific acts on innocent people. My hope is that the government in Baghdad can get it together to prevent these things from happening. I mean if we can do it…then why can’t they?

and the mother….

she is a fucking nutcase. she has no business raising a kid,,,if anything, she belongs in a building that houses people that can’t metally function with out supreme supervision. I don’t believe she needs jail. She needs some serious fucking help. ANY mother remotely like her needs to be in a place all their own. Release people who don’t belong in jail…hhmhmh (weed)……..and take that money and build a place to torment all of the female sex offenders and violent psychopath peice of shits that pretend to call themeselves ”mothers”!!! I say fuck them. That’s why.

Real parents are nurturing, loving, supportive, hardworking, blessings taken for granted people,,,,,,, we call Mom and Dad. People who give a damn! They LOVE us! They punish us,,,and teach us…..their children,,,to be honest and hard working good people. People who give a damn.

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 so its hard not to follow this story a little bit more then i would like, so i figured i would blog about it.

first of all, bringing guns to work is a no no. as i would presume if ur to dumb to know this, then there is something incredibly wrong with ur head. what i really dont understand, is what would posses anyone in this day and age to store weapons capable of such grave danger in any unsafe location. with everything that has happened as far as the NFL, baseball, and all over the world, wouldn’t you know better? i wonder if i brought guns to work what would happen? i no doubt would be fired! Gilbert  needs to be fired! in no way shape or form does he deserve to make the money that he does. the message he sent with his photo of pointing fingers as if there were pistols in the pregame shouldn’t be tolerated. he’s an idiot.

their are kids that look up to their favorite sports stars, celebs, rock stars, actors,,,and the list goes on. there is a certain degree of responsibility that needs to be understood that comes with their jobs.

in conclusin, i feel that mr arenas acted with out hesitation in making fun of the serious situation, that under normal curcimstances, carry hars consequences. we’ll see how the judge feels, as well as the NBA.